A whole mix of emotions...
It's 9:00 pm and it feels like a week has gone by since I awoke this morning. Today my family said goodbye to a very dear friend, the woman I am named after. Although she was 82 and we knew this would happen at some point, it still came as quite a shock because the deterioration of her health was so very fast. I can hardly believe that this is the same woman who seemed to be in perfect (elderly) health just a few weeks ago when we celebrated Christmas together.I am overcome by waves of grief continuously throughout the day, but there are so many other emotions that seem to take turns rising to the surface. I feel so privileged to have been by her side during the last hours. She was mostly unconcious, but for a few brief moments last night as we took turns holding her hand she opened her eyes and clearly recognized we were there with her. For this I am so thankful. Even this morning, I'd like to think that she was somehow aware of our presence as she slipped away.
I have a textbook knowledge of the grieving process, but it is so different from this perspective. I feel so many emotions, and yet numb all the while. At this point, exhaustion is prevailing.
posted by sibbie751 @ 9:00 p.m.
3 Comments:
Sib, I am very sorry for your loss. She was a tender-hearted woman, who was generous and kind. I am glad that you were with her in the end. (or should I say the beginning?). You have my sympathy.
Love--
thinking of you and your fam, Sib. I know that the loss of a grandmother-figure can be acute....love you--HJ
tks hj
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