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Nova Scotia Part Two

I wasn't planning to go to NS to hang out with Gram until Monday or Tuesday, but both the princess and I were getting a little stir crazy so we left last Sunday. It was so good just to be with my grandmother and not have anything going on, nowhere to be unless we wanted to. She is such an easy person to be with. Quite relaxing. For the most part.

Toward the end of my visit, I found myself feeling more and more uneasy. I think a few smaller factors contributed to the mood swing (humidity, full moon, time of the month, etc.) but at the centre of it was a gnawing grief. It should not have come as a surprise. This was my first visit to Truro since the funeral (see January posts), so of course it was an occasion to encounter the loss all over again. It was so hard to drive down Carter's street, right past her apartment building, and know that she wasn't there to visit. There would be no chinese take-out, ball games, and crazy eights. Ugghh. It feels like I'm never going to get through to a place where the thought of her doesn't wreck me inside. I am so dreading Christmas.

So that was NS the sequel. Good times with Gram, hard missing Carter. No big plans this week, but as soon as August hits...Nova Scotia Part Three...stay tuned.

posted by sibbie751 @ 12:41 a.m.